Monday 03-10-2022 - 09:42

Should I take you back to the times I got attached to my bed, because I was afraid of simply not fitting in? 

 

Well… I would forget the word “simply” there, because it’s not simple to fit in.

I didn't have anything I believed could break the ice with my peers. I don’t smoke nor drink so that did not do it. 

Everywhere I stepped felt like I was being stared at or was exposed. It felt overwhelming and unwelcoming. In turn, I retreated back to my comfort zone -- my University accommodation. 

But now, I believe the problem wasn't me "fitting in". It was either one of two things: I was not being accepted by people, or people were fascinated by how I looked.  

 

Have I gotten over this? Progressively. But the secret was how I perceived the situation. I intentionally began to open my introverted self to others. I attended different society meetings, had conversations with course mates, and engaged with things I was passionate about.

 

I slowly found my people through the Multicultural Society, Edge Hill Christian Union, swimming, and French lessons. Did I fit in? No. I believed in myself and accepted my uniqueness, my skin colour, culture, personality, first language (Asante Twi), and my interests. I realised that what I truly wanted was not to fit in, but to be free.

 

And since I normally write down how I feel, I went ahead to sculpt my feelings into this poem I call FREE.  

I want to be free, and I mean it this time...
I see that lady reminiscing in a yellow dress… The flair, her sun kissed skin glowing...

 

I want to be free, and I mean it! 
In my own world where I could explore... Away from being looked down upon!

 

I want to be free, and I mean it... 
I see the lady whose smile strengthens from ear to ear with endless joy.

 

I want to be free, and I mean it!

I will fly this time like a soaring eagle! Wide and majestic.

 

With that in mind no being could stop me. Every embargo will be eliminated. I will step and not tremble. Speak and not stammer...

And...

I will finally be free.

PS: I’m FREE 

 

If you take one thing from this, I would like you to know you don't need to restrict yourself to your comfort zone. There are opportunities and different ways you can shine. Be sure to take them and give yourself grace while you evolve, and I hope this inspires you to be true and accepting of yourself regardless.

This article was contributed by Black, Asian, and Minority Ethnic Students' Officer Akosua Poku.